Fear Less

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Right up to Sunday, which turned out to be a brilliant day altogether, last week was crap in every way. 2013 has to have been the weirdest year I’ve ever had, with impossible things happening – both really good and really bad – back to back. My stubborn sense of trying to see the good in everything, and belief that every bad thing generally happens for a good reason or outcome, finally started to cave under the pressure, and good old anxiety set in. Shake, rattle, and roll, and I’ve still got the shoulder ache to prove it.

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Yesterday we went for a braai with some lovely friends, met a lovely new friend, and had a really relaxing and great day at their gorgeous home. There’s nothing like spending time with people you like, people on the same wavelength, laughing and chatting about subjects that interest all of you, to get you out of a funk.

So, feeling really positive and once again able to string a sentence or two together, good old McNabs super-chill pack of holistic herbal peace pills doing their work, I’ve got my mojo back, and I foresee a good week of scribbling ahead. I’ve even got a better grip on my germ phobia, after being well sneezed upon in the bank, and managing not to sprint out immediately and buy a bottle of Dettol to disinfect – spending forty five minutes in a queue does wonders for embracing those funky germs.

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A more interesting twist to the week. We’ve discovered that there could be a wee ghostie in these parts. To be honest, the feathered horde have been a bit put out and nervous on a night or two – with Beanie the parrot girl exiting her own warm bed and heading over to mine a couple of times. Birds don’t usually move around in the dark, and mine never have before, so this struck me as a little odd. And the whole horde has been reluctant to go to bed a few times. The occasional case of goosebumps for no reason, and general sense of not being entirely on your own, has now been explained by hearing of a small brown thing being seen flitting around and about here, and others feeling a general sense of unease.

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I’m guessing that we haven’t finished with this – it’s two am right now and I’m feeling properly creeped out. Bring on the medicinal champers! It could just be that writing about these things will do that to you, and the rain is bucketing down. ‘Tis a dark and stormy night – sort of thing. I’m quite a coward when it comes to things that go bump in the night. The thought of something unseen being able to interfere with you gives me the proper willies, but I don’t care what sort of an ooh nasty you are – if you interfere with the horde and frighten my feathery guys out of their beds, I’m going to stomp on your spectral self – with a bit of luck and probably some burning sage.

Fear is a funny old thing. Whether it’s a fear of something creeping around when you’re asleep, or fear that your life has taken a disastrously dark turn, and you’re about to crash and burn, it’s never productive to let it get a good grip on you. Dark forces feed on fear – it makes them stronger. Whether that dark force is some sort of spirit up to no good, or a fear that no matter what you do something really horrible is going to happen, ruin your life, and make a mockery of everything you’ve worked for, it’s important never to give in to it. No matter what happens to you in your lifetime, it’s an amazing thing. Your life. Sometimes it helps to look at yourself, your amazingly alive self, and the world around you, and realise that ultimately nothing can truly harm you. You can choose to cower, or you can choose not to waste a second of your allocated three score and ten, and meet every little thing head on. You’re alive on this crazy miraculous rock – you have thought and you have soul – and the ability to choose to face anything with courage, or if necessary, a really big stick. Never let any sort of dark force steal any of your life. Rock on.

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18 thoughts on “Fear Less

    Menopausal Miss said:
    January 6, 2014 at 4:14 am

    Bit spooky! Not fun 😦 But I love your pictures, they just cracked me up …. 🙂

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      jorobinson176 responded:
      January 6, 2014 at 9:22 am

      Ha haaa – my appallingly artless doodles. 😀 Not so fond of the spooky, although if there really is one around it’s going to have to move. Hugs to Russia! 🙂

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        Menopausal Miss said:
        January 6, 2014 at 11:59 pm

        Well I think your doodles are great fun, and capture the moment beautifully! 🙂

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    Sherri said:
    January 6, 2014 at 7:57 am

    Oh Jo, I’m so glad that you’ve got your mojo back. I’m still trying to find mine…I know just what you mean about 2013 being so good and so bad and the way you describe how, despite ‘seeing the good in everything’, or trying to, this can only last so long before caving into a world of anxiety! Even being sneezed on (which I was just before Christmas and so came down with an awful cold!) Boy, can I ever relate to this! It is great isn’t it to spend time with good friends and then realise that you are lifted up and energized once again.

    As for your ‘ghost’, well, that is spooky! I hope you’re not too freaked out by it…

    I hope that the dark and the fear keeps its distance as the light of joy and peace swirls around you in the days ahead. Life is a precious thing indeed, not to be taken for granted for a single minute.

    Great post Jo, thank you so much for sharing 🙂 xx

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      jorobinson176 responded:
      January 6, 2014 at 9:41 am

      Wow Sherri – I hope that the dark and the fear keeps its distance as the light of joy and peace swirls around you in the days ahead. Life is a precious thing indeed, not to be taken for granted for a single minute. That’s the most beautiful wish, and sent straight back to you because that’s the best kind of mojo – the mojo of a lovely, kind, and compassionate soul. I’m sorry about your rotten cold – what’s with the sneezing people?! I really hope you’re feeling a lot better now – funny how sometimes life doesn’t bother with tossing lemons, and just lobs the whole tree instead. I wish you all the happiness in the world for 2014! I’m going to keep an eye out for that ghost – and if it is something bad it’s going to have to move. 😀 Thanks for being your wonderful self Sherri. 🙂 xxx

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        Sherri said:
        January 6, 2014 at 10:21 pm

        Ahh, you are so kind and lovely Jo 🙂 I love the way you write – as in ‘lobs the whole tree instead’ – love that!! – and yes, it does seem that way doesn’t it?! I am fine now thanks but it took a couple of weeks but thankfully I was over the worst by Christmas. I just need to get back into the swing of things and get writing properly!
        Yes, do keep us posted about that ghost – my hubby is fascinated as he has witnessed a few apparitions in his time, so I couldn’t wait to tell him, but I do hope for your sake that it goes and soon!!!
        I’m signing off now for the night (not sure what the time difference is) so I bid you a lovely evening (I think!) and more than anything, a peaceful one 🙂 xxx

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          jorobinson176 responded:
          January 7, 2014 at 5:00 am

          I’m glad you’re getting better, and getting back to proper scribbling is the best medicine too. It is a bit interesting to think what a small brown thing could be. Hopefully not a tokoloshi – apparently they’re nasty little sods – still, if anything still is hanging around it’s going to have everything from garlic to teapots hurled at it. 😀 I hope you have a wonderful week, full of energy and smiles. xxxx

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            Sherri said:
            January 8, 2014 at 11:05 am

            Never heard of a tokoloshi I must admit, but you obviously know what to do to get rid of it – nasty little sod – love that 🙂
            You too Jo, thanks so much. Got to get that energy back…and smiles… 🙂 xxx

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              jorobinson176 responded:
              January 9, 2014 at 1:53 pm

              Sending waves of smiles and energy across the pond to you Sherri, and large HUGS. 😀 xxxx

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    Vefday said:
    January 6, 2014 at 10:24 am

    I needed a lift after a tiring day and that’s just what you gave me. Yep.. rock on 🙂

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      jorobinson176 responded:
      January 6, 2014 at 10:52 am

      I’m sorry that your day made you need a lift, and happy that I gave you one – thank you! Keep on rocking my friend. 🙂 x

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    The Story Reading Ape said:
    January 6, 2014 at 11:30 am

    In my experience, most ‘Ghosties’ can be caught in a trap Jo, especially if they are small brown things – and in SA where you live, small brown things may attract long slithery things, so even though I know you love animals, set a trap 😀

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      jorobinson176 responded:
      January 6, 2014 at 11:36 am

      Rats!! LOL! It could be a rat haunting you’re saying? That’s all I need! LOLOLOL! 😀

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        The Story Reading Ape said:
        January 6, 2014 at 11:41 am

        We once lived in a thatched cottage with built in wardrobes – one day my wife showed me a pair of her sandals, one of which was showing signs of being eaten, so I set a rat sized humane trap inside the wardrobe – imagine our surprise to find the culprit was NOT a rat.
        It was a SQUIRREL! LOL 😀

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          jorobinson176 responded:
          January 6, 2014 at 11:49 am

          A squirrel with a shoe fetish! LOL! Not a good idea munching on a ladies shoes – it’s cool that he got to live lots more squirrelly days too. 😀

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    M T McGuire said:
    January 6, 2014 at 5:45 pm

    Sounds bizarre. All the best for 2014 and I hope the brown flitty thing moves on. 😉 If it doesn’t ask it what it wants. It may just be lost.

    Cheers

    MTM

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      jorobinson176 responded:
      January 7, 2014 at 5:02 am

      Or go with Shakespeare and yell “Begone foul shade!” LOL. 😀

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